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I want to be....I want to be one of those girls
The ones with the three inch gap between their thighs and the stick thin legs.
One of those teenagers
Who you see in the street with their arms all sliced up.
One of those children
Who don't have to count everything.
One of those kids
Who have a boyfriend and are never alone.
One of those students
Who has loads of friends.
One of those people
Who can be just 'Fine'.

But I want to be Normal.

I want to be able to eat.
I want to be able to not cut.
I want to be able to just relax.
I want to be able to not be alone.
I want to be able to make friends.
I want to be just fine.

Let Me Carry YouHush said the angel
Don't be lonely anymore
I'm here right beside you
Like so many times before
Time and again
I'll be here to fill your heart
Tonight I'm gonna show you
We're never far apart

Hush said the angel
You can tell me like it is
'Cos I'm not here to judge you
All I offer you is this
Time and again
I'll be here to fill your dreams
Tonight I'm gonna show you
Love is closer than it seems

Let me carry you
Let me be the one
Let me carry you
I can be the one
Let me care for you
I can heal the pain until it's gone
Let me carry you so you can carry on

Let me carry you so you can carry on

Inspiration for Happiness.Flowers have meaning.
Red roses for love,
White lilies for death.

Then there's the ones that bring joy to see.
Daffodils in Spring.
Foxgloves in Summer.
Even the falling leaves in Autumn are beautiful,
As they cover the world in their blanket of red and gold.

Flowers are shared, given to people who are loved.
When a new baby is born and life is celebrated,
Daisies as a surprise for a primary school friend,
A gift from a lover on a date,
A present for mummy on Mother's Day,
But used at funerals,too, given one last time.

No matter what happens in your life,
Flowers will follow you,
So enjoy the beauty as you realize how wonder

Because I Forget     Some broken hearts
  Will love again,
  Some fractured minds
Watch sun-rise, and mend,
  Some happy dreams
Are cherished by friends,

Because you have love,
You will triumph again

Some broken

Free from your clutches.This for you.
I know you will never see it, but I wanted to write how I felt, my thoughts.
Because I saw you hurt him, everyday, and I know he doesn't deserve it.
You might be my father, but I cut you out of my life because of how much your anger affected me. How much it hurt to see you do the same to him, my brother.

But he was more than my brother. I got stuck with him, grew to love him probably more than I should, in the way a mother would love a son. Maybe this was because so often you and her would ignore him, and someone had to care for him, feed him, play with him and watch him grow.

I hugged his little two-year-old body when he came

What Was the Point?I should feel happy
I made it through
I should feel like
I'm starting anew

But for some reason
What it is, I know not
I don't feel as excited
As I had first thought

So what was the point?
What did I gain?
I resisted the urges
But I still feel the same

Yes, I did do it
I did keep my goal
So why do I feel like
I'm still stuck in a hole?

I still feel the fear
I still feel the pain
All of these feelings
They all still remain

So what am I doing?
I'm feeling so lost
I made it a year
But at what cost?

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I Need You.

by ~StarvingSlicingTeen, Dec 31, 2012, 7:09:31 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

What if I need you to stop me?
What if I need you to stop me making myself sick for the fifth time today?
What if I need you to stop me running that razor across my wrist tonight?
But I've got to not need you anymore...

Where are you?
Where are you when I swallow all those pills?
Where are you when I run out of a classroom bursting into tears?
But you're not here for me anymore...

Who can I talk to?
Who can I talk to when I don't want to eat for four days?
Who can I talk to when I can't take things anymore?
But you don't really care anymore....

Who can give me that support?
Who's going to tell me it's okay to be scared?
Who's going to give me that hug when I'm shaking?
But not you, because my problems aren't your responsibility anymore...

But now I am alone.
_{And I can't feel this way.... Not anymore.}

I Need You.by ~StarvingSlicingTeen

Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

My sister, who was there for me for everything, has told me "Your problems are not my responsibility anymore. I'm sorry you feel that way, but it's not for me to take care of you."

Just a little poem on that for you.

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~SpaghettiandEddsauce Feb 3, 2013 Student Writer

Awwe honey...

~StarvingSlicingTeen Feb 5, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

It's okay. ^^

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~luckydraws Jan 21, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

oh dang... I hope you feel better, and please don't cut yourself. Remember that their is a purpose and happiness out there for everyone ^^. You were put on this earth for a reason, and it was to do good, so please don't hurt yourself. ^^

~StarvingSlicingTeen Jan 21, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

It's okay. I feel better since I wrote that and am trying hard to get things back on track for myself. ^^

~luckydraws Jan 22, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

good for you! that is truly a admirable thing to do

~StarvingSlicingTeen Jan 22, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

Thank you. I just hope that day by day I can pick up the pieces.

~luckydraws Jan 22, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

ill definitly be rooting for you. Although I can't possibly know the pain you're going through, I've certainly experienced some lows in my life-- so I can understand a little bit. Please get better

and you can talk to me anytime ^^

~StarvingSlicingTeen Jan 23, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

Thank you~. That means a lot to me, really. ^^ I'll try to get better, and hopefully one day I will.

~luckydraws Jan 23, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

no problem no problem! good luck good luck, jia you jiao you! (chinese for good luck) lol

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