I want to be....I want to be one of those girlsThe ones with the three inch gap between their thighs and the stick thin legs.One of those teenagersWho you see in the street with their arms all sliced up.One of those childrenWho don't have to count everything.One of those kidsWho have a boyfriend and are never alone.One of those studentsWho has loads of friends.One of those peopleWho can be just 'Fine'.But I want to be Normal.I want to be able to eat.I want to be able to not cut.I want to be able to just relax.I want to be able to not be alone.I want to be able to make friends.I want to be just fine.
Sewing my heart back together.When I first heardThe words ‘I love you’Come from your lips after you’d kissed meMy heart cracked.Not because it was a lie,Not because I didn’t love you,But because, right then, I realisedThat you were the first personTo say those words to me,Who wasn’t a family member,Or a close friend.Because instead you are the boyWho’s arms I can curl up inAnd who I can fall asleep next to,Who I can trust.And then I realised, that my heart didn’t break,It didn’t falter, or crackInstead, a few of the little pieces,Were being stitched back together.So this is really just to sayThank youAnd that I love you, too.
I Need You.What if I need you to stop me?What if I need you to stop me making myself sick for the fifth time today?What if I need you to stop me running that razor across my wrist tonight?But I've got to not need you anymore...Where are you?Where are you when I swallow all those pills?Where are you when I run out of a classroom bursting into tears?But you're not here for me anymore...Who can I talk to?Who can I talk to when I don't want to eat for four days?Who can I talk to when I can't take things anymore?But you don't really care anymore....Who can give me that support?Who's going to tell me it's okay to be scared?Who's going to give me that hug when I'm shaking?But not you, because my problems aren't your responsibility anymore...But now I am alone. And I can't feel this way.... Not anymore.
Inspiration for Happiness.Flowers have meaning.Red roses for love,White lilies for death.Then there's the ones that bring joy to see.Daffodils in Spring.Foxgloves in Summer.Even the falling leaves in Autumn are beautiful,As they cover the world in their blanket of red and gold.Flowers are shared, given to people who are loved.When a new baby is born and life is celebrated,Daisies as a surprise for a primary school friend,A gift from a lover on a date,A present for mummy on Mother's Day,But used at funerals,too, given one last time.No matter what happens in your life,Flowers will follow you,So enjoy the beauty as you realize how wonderful the world is.